The Night before

This is my last night in America! I find myself almost not wanting to leave, mostly because I’ve had so much fun saying goodbye to everyone! I’ve made some amazing new friends and caught up with some old ones. Its 3:21 am, in 12 hours I’ll be getting on my plane, and 13 hours after that I’ll be getting off it. I’m almost finished packing and I have no intention of going to sleep.
There is no moon tonight and the stars look amazing. I still don’t feel like I’m leaving in the morning. I feel like tomorrow I could go hang out with kateland-san again, or go get another cookie with Ashleigh. I suppose it won’t hit me until I’m in the airport itself.
Part of me feels awful about leaving. I’m starting to reconsider my previous plans for my college carrier. It’s an ambitious plan but it doesn’t leave much for my social life. I think I’ll cut back; I really want to be here in America more than I originally planned. I made that plan when I was alone, and now that I’m not I don’t know that I want to be away. I think I will handle it just fine, but I don’t know that I want to.
This being said I still think this summer is a good idea, and one I can look back on. I’m very excited to see Yasuko, to live on my own, and to have a roommate and dorm-mates. Of course I’ll have the internet and I’ll keep in touch and two months isn’t that long, I go that long without seeing most of my friends half the time anyway.
This isn’t really a very productive or elegant post, and I considered not posting it at all except that I feel that it is relevant to the journey.